I realized that I am juggling too many balls right now.
Life has thrown me a lot of ‘stuff’ my way, and frankly, it’s more than I can handle.
There is an expression..
“you can have anything you want, but you can’t do everything you want.”
To me, that means that if I want anything bad enough, I can make it happen.
But there is so much one person can do.
I took stock on my life and realized that, yup, God/Universe/etc. has landed in my lap pretty much everything that I wanted.
Pretty incredible, actually.
But I wanted a lot – at the same time.
Not good, folks.
I believe it was Oscar Wilde who said
“the only thing worse than not getting what you want, is getting what you want.”
Profound words.
But what to ‘cut out?’
In my class on Religion and Spirituality, I have taught the power of the level of non-belief. The power to say “no, I don’t believe that is helpful anymore.” To me, that is a very necessary step for growth. That we have to let go (“no”) to an old belief, in order to open space for a new belief system.
It also applies, in my opinion, to weeding out activities in our lives.
I stopped struggling and went with my instinct.
One what I KNEW was right to drop from my life.
One of the things surprised me.
It was my local “Of mind and spirit” group!!
No, not the classes. I will continue to teach that even if nobody shows up!
I was also trying to start a local group based on a vision I had.
It fumbled along for a while, and then.
nothing.
I took a hard look at the situation.
What was going on?
Wasn’t this what my passion was all about?
“of mind and spirit?”
Well, that turned out to be the problem.
I saw that I drastically changed the very mission of the group from the beginning.
Very slowly I changed it from my vision to the vision of the people who were attending.
It was subtle, but by the end it transformed into something that was simply not my vision.
Here’s the thing.
The modified vision for the group wasn’t a bad one!
It was actually a very good vision!!
Perhaps even a great one!!
But it wasn’t one that was in my heart and soul.
Thus, I had no real PASSION for the group.
Without passion, nothing can live for long.
I knew what I had to do.
So I disbanded the group.
Oh, not permanently.
I WILL resurrect it again.
And when I do, it will be based on a vision that makes my heart sing.
I learned a lot from this experience.
How we waste our time on things not aligned to our soul (even though at an artificial level, we may be fooled to think it is).
How we over commit and get involved in too much at the same time.
How hard it is to let go of things – especially those that we “created”.
How important it is to prioritize the things in our life.
Sometimes it is not what we say “yes” to that is critical for our success.
It is what we say “no” to that is even more important.
That’s how we focus. By limiting what we are focusing on.
Letting go of things can be challenging, but deciding exactly what to let go is really not that hard.
Deep down inside, you know what you should not be doing.
You KNOW there are things that you no longer believe in, and hang on to them out of habit.
You KNOW the things that are not helping you, and those things that are harmful to you.
And you KNOW when the time is right to do this!
Right now?
I need to let go of writing this blog, as it is getting too long and it is getting too late!!
So, adios mi amigos!
Buenos noche.
Steve